adventures of life as told by me

Look at my bookshelf, she says. My last apartment had a bookshelf. The bookshelf was home to many, many books I had collected over the years. Garage sales (oh, how I miss garage sales), thrift shops, book sales, I collected very many books. Most of them gathered dust, as I found myself too busy to read (and a little addicted to Netflix). When I did read, it was for a mere 15 minutes between classes and work.  Although my time was not spent reading, I often found myself feeling wise or interesting because of the books on my bookshelf. I didn't ever have company, my apartment was not the biggest. And no one really saw my bookshelf, but it made me feel smart. I enjoyed rearranging the books, reading the descriptions, diving into the first few pages, occasionally reading the last sentence, rarely finishing a whole book. All this and I never seemed to pick up the habit of reading a book cover to cover. I am reading books now, she says. The new habit I have picked up is readi...

Being a legal adult puts a lot of pressure on some people. I know that I am responsible for my actions. I know that I should be able to make adult decisions, and I know what is right versus what is wrong.  I believe that I am old enough to know better; then again most of people my age are too young to care. We do our best to fly under the radar and try our best not to get caught. Most of us don’t care to follow the rules or laws. We are careless and therefore get caught. I do not believe most people my age are old enough to know, cause if we were, we would be staying out of trouble and our records  wouldn't  be filled with violations like possession or minor consumption tickets. I have had my careless moments in life, I'll admit that. It isn't everyday that certain  opportunities  come knocking at your door. I do believe that I know better but sometimes the devil on my shoulder will get the best of me. We aren't all perfect. I guess what I am trying to say i...

Knowing what I know now there are so many things I would have done differently. I know I cannot go back and change those things. But I know that in the future I can learn from my past. Throughout my whole life there are so many things that could have gone better and could have been done differently. Regret is not a word to use lightly. Regrets are big mistakes and I only have a few of them in my life. These things that I would have done differently aren’t all regrets. They are things that could have been dealt with better or things that could’ve gone more smoothly. If I would have done these things in a different way, I know my life now could be easier and maybe even better. I don’t want to say I am unhappy with where I am at right now, because I’m not. I am perfectly content and happy where I am at in my life. I just want to be able to learn from my mistakes and make sure that I can become a better person from them. When I make a mistake or something happens when I need to contemplate...